Love? Really?

Beloved.  

A word that stirs up conflict within my soul.  Somewhere I picked up the idea that letting others love me was something I was not worthy of.  It is something I struggle to receive from others and from God.

Worthy of love?  Really?

You all don’t know me and my heart like I do, so it can’t be true.  It is a lie I tell myself so often. It is a struggle to think of myself worthy of close friendships.  It is a struggle to trust others with what is inside of me.

Truth be told none of us are worthy of God’s love for we are all sinners.  Yet he loves me and you despite that.  He loves us enough to die for us and make each of us worthy.

“I am my beloved’s and my beloved is mine” Song of Songs 6:3″

Worthy of love? Really?

Yes, I am.  Yes, you are.

Beloved.  

Letting Go……….

 

 

 

 

Yesterday as I sat with God pouring my heart out re-evaluating I realized I needed some boundaries for my own peace of mind.  They are not boundaries for other, but boundaries I need for me.  A dear friend reminded me of this not long ago.  I need to let go of my ideas of what should happen or what I want to happen.  I need to let go and trust God with my worries and cares of this world.  I need the wisdom of the Serenity Prayer.  Instead of trying to control the world around me I need to surrender and trust that God will make all things right.  Instead of trying to change things I can’t, I need the wisdom to know what I can and can not do.  My theme for the last two years has been “Rest.”  This year it is “Letting Go.”  I don’t entirely know all that it entails, but so far when I have trusted in God and asked him for my one thing/word for the year, it has helped me grow in ways I never imagined.  So Lord please help me to truly embrace you as I pray the Serenity Prayer, trusting you and letting go of what needs to be let go of.  Amen!