My Hope…

I texted a friend to pray for me one day when my anxiety was overwhelming. This friend sent me a link to the song Even If by Mercy Me. Honestly I did not take the time to look it up right away.

Then the next time I as at church someone sang it. I cried during the whole song while singing. Deep within my heart it struck a nerve. It doesn’t matter what I was anxious about it just felt like I was breaking inside and nothing would ever fix it.

I know the sorrow, and I know the hurt
Would all go away if You’d just say the word
But even if You don’t
My hope is You alone

These words penetrated my heart when nothing else could. It broke me in a good way. It allowed me to realize if the things that cause my anxiety never go away my hope is still in God. My hope comes from a love that loves me deeper than I can imagine. His love doesn’t require me to have everything together or to be perfect before I come. I just need to come sit and share the tears and anguish with him.I went forward just to cry at the feet of Jesus that Sunday. I found myself not alone. A friend came up and prayed for me to experience the love of Christ more. I cried my heart out to him and he answered by giving me a friend to physically be there to hold me and hug me and pray with me.

What brings you to the feet of Jesus? Do you allow others to see you when you are broken? More importantly do you let Jesus be your Hope! He loves you and me so much. Let him be there. Don’t run and hide.

Even If by Mercy Me Full Lyrics
They say sometimes you win some
Sometimes you lose some
And right now, right now I’m losing bad
I’ve stood on this stage night after night
Reminding the broken it’ll be alright
But right now, oh right now I just can’t

It’s easy to sing
When there’s nothing to bring me down
But what will I say
When I’m held to the flame
Like I am right now

I know You’re able and I know You can
Save through the fire with Your mighty hand
But even if You don’t
My hope is You alone

They say it only takes a little faith
To move a mountain
Well good thing
A little faith is all I have, right now
But God, when You choose
To leave mountains unmovable
Oh give me the strength to be able to sing
It is well with my soul

I know You’re able and I know You can
Save through the fire with Your mighty hand
But even if You don’t
My hope is You alone
I know the sorrow, and I know the hurt
Would all go away if You’d just say the word
But even if You don’t
My hope is You alone

You’ve been faithful, You’ve been good
All of my days
Jesus, I will cling to You
Come what may
‘Cause I know You’re able
I know You can

I know You’re able and I know You can
Save through the fire with Your mighty hand
But even if You don’t
My hope is You alone
I know the sorrow, I know the hurt
Would all go away if You’d just say the word
But even if You don’t
My hope is You alone

It is well with my soul
It is well, it is with my soul