Happy New Year everyone!
I have a confession to make. I attend Delta, my recovery group at church. Delta, means change. I read the steps each week in group, yet I still don’t always remember to apply them to my life.
Today in the midst of the beautiful snow fall, I was a Lion’s Lake sitting in my car re-evaluating the steps and writing about it in my journal. I took the time to really think about this past year, this last month, and even today. Am I really doing the steps? Or am I just skating by pretending and putting on a front for others?
I found myself crying thinking about this past year and even the most recent stress of my husband chronic illness and afib. Re-evaluating made me realize I once again had tried to control things that were out of my control. I tried to be god in my own life, instead of letting Jesus be Lord of my life. I chose today to start again fresh re-working the steps.
Remember as you start a new year, take some time to review the steps and see where you are. I have learned at least for me I need to always revisit the steps and evaluate again am I doing each step. Where are you in working the steps? Are you working the steps?
Step 1: We admitted we were powerless over our addiction – that our lives had become unmanageable.
Step 2: We came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
Step 3: We made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood God.
Step 4: We made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.
Step 5: We admitted to God, to ourselves and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.
Step 6: We were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.
Step 7: We humbly asked God to remove our shortcomings.
Step 8: We made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all.
Step 9: We made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.
Step 10: We continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it.
Step 11: We sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood God, praying only for knowledge of God’s will for us and the power to carry it out.
Step 12: Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to other addicts, and to practice these principles in all our affairs.